Wednesday, January 1, 2014

“But I Don’t Want to…”


              Hello blog world, it has been awhile since I have posted. I feel as if I have been neglecting the blog- and that is partially what this post is about. You know those times when “you just aren’t feeling it?” Yeah, me too. That is exactly how I have been feeling lately. Like I just don’t want to. As a college student, it is hard finding time for the Lord each day—something I definitely struggled with the first semester, and now I’m more than halfway through my break wondering how I wasted it away. I had plans on spending a lot of time in The Word. This is something I haven’t done as much as planned. Why? Because “I just didn’t feel like it.”
            Unfortunately these are times everyone goes through—and nobody particularly enjoys. So, how do we deal with these times? Do anything and everything but dive into the word? Of course not! I’ve heard it many ways- “when you don’t want it is when you most need it,” “Worship through it”, and “Pray through it.” Guess what? These all point to one truth- We need to draw near to The Lord!! “Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world.” James 4:8. Even when we are feeling apathetic the best thing we can do is turn to the Lord and keep our focus on Him.
            The world and its desires cannot satisfy us! Ecclesiastes 1:2-11 focuses on how everything else is meaningless! So clearly, if all else is meaningless, it cannot fill us. I am convicted of trying to ignore my apathy by filling myself with empty, worldly things. This has never gotten me anywhere, so why stick to the same patterns? I’ve been missing that sense of joy that comes only from our Lord and Savior!
            “I will be filled with Joy because of You. I will sing praises to Your name, O most high.” Psalm 9:2. Endless joy from The Lord awaits us! That is such a beautiful fact, how could I, or anyone, want to keep ignoring this?
            It is okay that we experience these dry patches, it’s even to be expected. So, don’t let these knock you off of the Lord’s firm foundation for us, but rather let them serve as a challenge to overcome with the Lord’s help. Don’t let Satan or apathy stand in your way of the Lord. He is higher than all.
            I’m ready to stop wallowing in apathy, it’s time to start intentionally seeking His word! It holds amazing promises for us. The Lord has promised to draw near to us, and to bring us joy! So, let’s do this people! Let’s get our heads in the game, and start giving the Lord the time and honor he so rightfully deserves! So much awaits us at the end of our apathy.
            I pray that as the New Year rings in, we all make a point to deliberately seek the Lord. That we all find the joy and peace that His name brings. Let us live to bring Him glory.
            With Love,
                        Haley